cryin these tears, tryin to be human
cryin for the first time
for something real

my mind comes to tear me up
to distort my illusions
and frustrate me
but inside i let myself fall limp

forgetting is so painful that i forgot what it feels like
these memories, so impermanent.
just tiny, cold, flashbacks
that spark a hot flush

i'm waiting with the door only a crack open
no further than a crack will i open it
but im waiting, hoping
for some hope

that you are there, that you look after him
that you are happy and free
that all did not cease
that it is all as precious as it seems

give me faith
the faith i dont know if i want
if i could just hug you
and say i am sorry one more time
you leave me speechless
would you call it guilt?
i miss you, it doesnt make sense that you're gone

give me a field of perfect posies
how many can one girl pick
how many can one girl love
how many can one girl be there for?
stretch me out, lay me on the scanner
i need a double

i take a risk here
just,
   needing,
             a light.